Still learning how to say “no”.

As a student, I have really learned the art of juggling. No, not the circus way, unfortunately, but juggling a billion things at the same time. It can be fun trying to handle school, a practicum, work, programs, a business, and other school-related extracurriculars all at once. I suppose you could say that I am a serial multitasker. Or maybe I was just born that way. The natural ways of  a Libra. I love being busy and all but there comes a time when I just need to start to learn how to say no. I would say that one of my biggest flaws is that I feel like I have the capacity to do everything — which is great, essentially — but I find it difficult to really narrow my focus down to one or two things.  I feel like I can handle everything all at once but I guess it can be detrimental as well as it would detract from my performance or quality of work.

I have let down a couple people lately and may be removing myself from some of my current extracurriculars at school in the coming semester. I really feel that the university chapter has drawn to a close. As much as I love my peers, it’s time for me to move on, put my foot down, and just say no.

Learning process, right?

When it rains, it pours.

September was a complete bust. Okay, maybe not completely but the last week kind of was. If there’s one thing I hate, it’s uncertainty. I am in an odd place right now in my life all because it is my last semester (or is it?). It’s ultimately affecting everything. I have to be so aware of my actions and how I carry myself because, well, playtime is basically over. Time to get serious. I want to be taken seriously — really sick of being viewed as a child. Turning 22 in just a few weeks and as much as I hate it, I guess my mother is right — time to get my act together and grow up.

Despite my bitterness (and vagueness), there are a few great things going on. Afterall, there is always a rainbow after every storm.

It’s going to be a long semester.


School’s out!

This morning I had my last and only final of the semester. I barely studied but found the exam to be fairly easy and finished in half an hour (but stayed an extra 15 minutes because you know how awkward it is when you’re the first one done super fast). As I handed in my exam I realized that this was my last exam I will ever have to take at SFU. Yep, that’s right. I am officially done taking courses at SFU! Kind of a scary thought. And now that I think about it, it was so anticlimatic! I totally thought I was going to have another exam or some other final paper during my last semester at SFU next semester because I’m short by one credit but then I realized that the practicum program also counts for credits (oops). I know I did a shitty job writing my final final paper for this lame course I took this summer that I’m totally unhappy about and now I wrote my very last final without being aware of it. So happy it’s over though!

In other news, I finally received word from a potential agency regarding my fall practicum next semester — AND I GOT IT!!! So stoked!!! My practicum will be at The FREDA Centre (Feminist, Research, Education, Development, Action) and I will hopefully (if the project materializes) be conducting research on immigrant and refugee women and the challenges they experience in regards to their accessibility to resources. I. AM. SO. EXCITED. The FREDA Centre’s mandate is to prevent the violence against women and children and is an organization that I strongly believe in. It advocates for the importance of research and involvement in community groups and additionally, it marries both my love for criminology, gender studies, and feminist research. I am beyond ecstatic to be working amongst such a talented group of individuals!



I have no life. See y’all on 4/20!


/boring nerdy school post.

There has only been one thing one my mind as of late: school. As the semester is quickly coming to a close, with that comes an enormous avalanche of term papers, last minute presentations, wrap-up and group projects, and of course, the dreaded final exam. Only two term papers this semester, 12-15 pages, totally doable. I actually really quite enjoy writing papers — I’m a nerd like that. Haven’t thought of a topic for my Violence Against Women class but I’m actually starting one up one of my papers next week for my Minorities in Criminal Justice class just to get that out of the way. If my proposed topic is approved, I will be writing on Canada’s Live-In Caregiver Program (LCP) and how it is detrimental and further marginalizes immigrants from third-world countries in specific reference to Filipino women. I am of Filipino descent and my family has employed “nannies” (as they so call it) on the basis on sponsorship and I think I would be able to bring a different angle to the table. I think sponsorship (not only in terms of domestic work) is a terrible thing. Yes, I am fully aware that employers are giving immigrants a chance to come to Canada, but only in terms of underpaying them because no Canadian citizen would ever rightfully do that work for such a low amount of wage?  I think it’s disgusting. And sad too because it happens frequently in this country. For example, I know of certain employers that sponsor immigrants to come to Canada, pay them at a lower wage than other employees, and do not pay their employees overtime. It is really disturbing.

On a lighter note, Project GIVE is almost a wrap! Two more weeks to go until the panel presentation. We’ve got some awesome ideas planned specifically for our presentation and a killer theme that will metaphorically (along with our theme) sweep the judges off their feet! Our theme is kick-ass and our mentor, Val Litwin, was so impressed with us and all the work we have accomplished thus far. Best…mentor…EVER! Excited to finish this part of the project. Next step? Going out into the world and actually making this project a reality. And change some lives in the mix too.

My enrollment date was earlier this afternoon. After much consideration, I have decided to sign up for more than one class for summer semester. I am taking CRIM 369 DE (Ethics), CRIM 312 DE (Current Social Problems) and SA 337 (Sexuality and Society). Pretty UNstoked for the Crim courses I’m taking as I have heard they are extremely writing heavy… Pretty sure I’ll be writing over 200 pages (I’m not even exaggerating) this summer. I am pretty excited for my Sociology class because I have waited 4 years to take another class with the legendar, Ann Travers. Super excited. I was actually enrolled in this class two summers ago but she had cancelled it due to unforeseen circumstances. Pretty effing stoked.

I also have a super genius plan for my last year in university. So… yes, I’ve enrolled in my last few courses in the summer (will be taking my very last one in Fall 2011). SO my plan is to take summer semester, do my practicum/field practice and last course in the fall, and then off to study abroad in Spring 2012. Sounds amazing, right? Apparently I will have to talk to the International Studies department and beg for them for accept me into Spring 2012’s field exchange because they discourage people from studying abroad during their last semester. BUT the thing is, I will have completed my 120 credits and satisfied all of my requirements needed for graduation by Fall 2011 that next spring semester won’t even be needed. So… what’s the deal!??! Grrr.

In other news, I was nominated randomly and elected as the new Forum Representative of the Criminology Student Assocation.  Yay?

And in disgustingly offensive news, I gave my number out to a token old guy who was in a number of my Crim classes based purely on “study purposes”. What a fool I am. I know it was stupid but goddammit, I’m regretting it now. FML.

Goodbye social life.

It’s that time of year again. March. Just like November, it’s the month of hell for many undergraduate students such as myself. Weekly stats assignments and meetings, papers due every week, Project GIVE presentation at the end of the month, work x2, presentations and projects, and not to mention the start of a new job (worst timing ever!!!), I have to say that I will be turning into a hermit for the next little while. Although there may be an extremely limited number of openings for my time next week if you want me to pencil you in.